Many random thoughts…

I need to call O back. I am a bad friend. I have been anti-social for the past 2 weeks. When did I become like this?! (or have I always been like this?) Ever since my mom got sick, I’ve been bouncing back and forth between being a hermit and not. I’m in one of those in between periods, where I see that I have become a hermit, and I am trying oh so hard to pull myself up by my bootstraps and snap out of it. This is unhealthy. Seri, will you explain it to me? I need therapy.

I got really depressed this weekend about how I don’t have friends around. Other than Jason, I would only really hang out with Sam. And we don’t even hang out..umm..ever? But, I find myself close to envious - ok, call it what it is – envious of folks when I hear them just randomly getting together, hanging out. “Hey, what are you doing? Can I come over?” I miss my girls, dearly. I’m sad that there aren’t folks nearby for me to have lunch with during the workday. nd then, when I’m at home, I don’t get to see Kar or Al or Bops that much because I need to be with my mom.

I can’t explain it. Just a little discontentment and apathy all mixed together. No whining. Just sad. I should call O back.

In other news, I went to look for a skinny scarf for Al at Stanford. No luck. I did see this MONSTROUS dog outside of BR, though. It was the size of a small bear. No kidding. It was HUGE! Made my day..well, that and Jason’s generosity and thoughtfulness.

Ok, I will try calling O on the way home this evening!