Graduation has come and gone...a somewhat distant memory of sitting in the sun..and too many dinners at East Ocean. Memories momentarily resurrected when people give me pictures. What a strange few weeks it has been. Life has moved so slowly. I guess everyone has told me that life is a lot slower outside of college. That it's just super accelerated in college. Learning to slow down..that's been difficult, especially since I've come to thrive off of the craziness and busy-ness of college life.

Now, every morning, I ask myself, "gee, what am I going to do with myself today?" Oh, I am very grateful for the downtime. It's nice to have time to pay bills, balance my checkbook, scrub the bathtub, talk to friends. But part of me longs for the familiarity of a busy schedule. Change. It is time for change. It's not super-dramatic or anything. But, God's moving me to new places now. I'm grateful that God is allowing me to stay in Berkeley...in my trusty college apartment with my trusty college roommate...and to stay at the church that I've been at. Baby steps in moving forward in the life that He has prepared.

I think I'm plagued by many things that are part of the classic "post-graduation funk." I'm scared...many, many things are uncertain. I don't like change; I'd rather cling to the past. I feel like I'm the only one in the world going through this...when in fact, 75% of my friends are all in similar places. And then God graciously reminds me that it's really not about me..and what I am, what I'm not, what I know, what I don't know. It's about me walking in hope, in boldness as I follow Him. I must continue to acknowledge His Lordship over my life...it hasn't ended just because I've graduated. His lordship over my life hasn't even CHANGED since I've graduated. So why do I act as if I'm alone and trying to carve out a place for myself?

"For His delight is not in the strength of the horse
nor in the legs of man.
But the Lord delights in those who fear Him,
who put their hope in His unfailing love."

and I keep clinging....