So, all in all, it's been a sad day. Strange how yesterday, I was bored out of my mind. I was only in Berkeley for a few hours when I felt the need to call everybody that I knew. I was all antsy...itching to go out, to do something.

And today, it is a quiet day. A day for sitting, thinking, crying, reflecting, more sitting. I think I've spent most of the day staring at the wall. I've kinda just wanted to be alone. A friend passed away this morning. It has been more shocking than it has been sad. Death - what a strange..I can't even think of the right word...event? Is it an event? I guess so...I'm not even sure what to say. It's one of those things in life that you really can't prepare for. It just happens - sometimes more suddenly than others. But it leaves marks, scars, pain that is deeper than anything I have ever experienced.

People in my life seem to die in June. It's a hard month. My uncle passed away a year ago next week. Death....funny how it is..it kinda comes..and then life for everyone must go on. It has to go on. I don't know what I'm saying. Just fleshing out thoughts.

Brian, we miss you. We will remember you. You've touched my life. Rachel and I were remembering that one night outside of Spats when you made us laugh like we were three years old without a care in the world. You reminded me to find the things that are priceless and so valuable in each person I ever met. You were patient with me. You told me to get over myself. Not quite ready to say good bye yet...in time...

I should go find some people to hang out with. Not good to be alone for too long.