The sun came out today in Paris. woohoo! It's actually rather hot. Enough about the weather. So, I've gotten to spend a good amount of time alone today. We spent the weekend in Troyes, a small town out in the French countryside where Olivia is doing a summer program. We went out to visit her. Dude, the place is so cute. I think I could live there. The townspeople just go out and eat on weekends. They'll sit in this one plaza that has tons of restaurants for hours. And they eat, they drink (in moderation), and just spend time together. It's kind of a cool life.

I've discovered during my week and a half here, that I am far more attached to home than I thought I was. I've missed my family a lot. (yes, Jess, I miss you lots) I've missed my friends a lot. I spent a lot of time talking with Olivia last night, and we both acknowledged that God has been revealing things about my own heart to me. He's been showing me how much I'm still a child. I am more attached to my family than i thought. I have missed both them and my friends more than I could imagine. It was so refreshing to spend time with Olivia. I've spent a good amount of time e-mailing my friends, trying to get a taste of the things going on back in the Bay. So, e-mail me and tell me about your past two weeks! I don't cqre how trivial you think it may be.

I wonder why I hold these things so dear. Doesn't Christ say that to love Him one must hate his brother? Yes, it's supposed to be a "in comparison" type thing, but the things that have happened this past week have indicated how I can so subtley (karen, jean, nor I know how to spell that) make things that are secure my god.

This trip has been really refreshing though. It's been nice to escape the things that faced me at home. I've had time to bring them to God. It's easy to be alone with and quiet before God when your sitting in the Jardins du Luxembourg. It's hard to be distracted by people talking in languages you can't understand. I'm hopeful now. Not that I will find a job soon, not that the things that burden my heart will go away. But, God has patiently reminded me and shone me that He is good; He works all things together for those who love Him. It's been so nice to just be with God, to not be so busy doing.

hmmm...things are very jumbled in my head. There are zillions (ok, maybe not zillions) of thoughts. They will come out in time.